I am autistic.

I have struggled my 40 years thinking I was always doing wrong things in other people's view and never linked why I have always found social gathering difficult and stressful. I don't have any friends and I always wore a mask to hide my struggles. Even when everything is going fine, hiding how difficult/stressful it's been to have everything go fine.

I have been put on waiting list for diagnosis, 18 months waiting list. I have started feeling very hopeless and feel like everything I have been trying all those years will never work, so why put effort. It's very demotivating.

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  • Waiting is very difficult, even the month I waited after deciding I definitely needed a diagnosis, was far too long. I think that most clinical diagnoses are merely confirming what is already known. It certainly was for me. There is a fair amount of literature out there that at the very least will help you understand yourself, and might be helpful. Realising that I was autistic was a relief for me. I recognised that I wasn't a neurotypical person being very bad at being neurotypical, but was a neurodivergent person who was doing quite a reasonable job of functioning in a society that was uncongenial to me or downright hostile. 

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  • Waiting is very difficult, even the month I waited after deciding I definitely needed a diagnosis, was far too long. I think that most clinical diagnoses are merely confirming what is already known. It certainly was for me. There is a fair amount of literature out there that at the very least will help you understand yourself, and might be helpful. Realising that I was autistic was a relief for me. I recognised that I wasn't a neurotypical person being very bad at being neurotypical, but was a neurodivergent person who was doing quite a reasonable job of functioning in a society that was uncongenial to me or downright hostile. 

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