Being Drunk

Hi, I have drank quite heavily throughout my life, and I now realize (late diagnosis) that's have tried to use alcohol as a way to integrate.

I don't think it ever worked,no matter how hard I tried.

It has brought me nothing but heartache and trouble. So now at 56 I hardly touch the stuff.

Wish known much earlier.

It's a lot better for me now

I was slightly luckier than many of you, someone handed me a small chunk of morrocan hashish at work when I was 18, and that suited my condition a LOT better, than the alcohol ever did. It;s as fiendishly addictive of course as anything that makes your life feel less painful, BUT easier to stop. Probably harder to stay off though, becuase the effect is pleasant (to me, unless I smoke too much, then it becomes briefly unpleasant due to the low B.P. symptopms (white face and nausea), but that will pass quickly, and you still don't feel physically ruined the day after, although you may not get much done until midday, if you've really overdone the green stuff) and vastly less harmful in my 4 deades of observation, than the alcohol drug that society does push you towards.. 

And for those poor souls who may be seriously contemplating suicide, before you do that silly thing, (and it is a silly and ill considered step, for the very practical reason that an afterlife is possibly hiding inside the 8 or so extra dimensions that modern physics says must exist for the maths to work, and which aren't available to us in our current form. How you experience that afterlife could very much depend on how you coped with this 4 dimensional reality, and it's probably better to wring all the sucess and learning you can out of this one first before leaving it.. Seriously, that little insght stopped me looking for a way out, and starting to take this life a bit more seriously.) 

Potential suicides ought to be prescribed to take half an "E" and go to a rave, then see how you feel about your potential quality of life afterwards. For those who try this, don't ever do it regularly, but on a one off basis, it is a transformative experience, and will show you a potential "you" that you perhaps do not know exists. But as with all psychologically active substances repeated use definitely makes permanent changes in the user. For example, normal me cannot (and will not on principle)  do dancing, but me on "E" is a very different animal. It also made me like music that I was finding cacophonous to the point that I wanted to leave, just before the drug kicked in, so it's clearly a "dodgy" course of action, but it's less dodgy than the suicidal ideation I'd been feeling for the few weeks prior to taking it. Apparenlty the psych profession is looking towards using MDMA for just this sort of thing, but the problem, as always, is people LIKE feeling good, and when given an instant way of getting those feelings on demand, who in their right mind wants to stop? 

The "pursuit of happiness" is baked into the American constitution, unless they try to pusue happiness by taking a drug that engenders it...

What we really need (according to my admittedly probaly "quite warped" way of thinking) is a societal model that focusses on the things that really make people quietly content, rather than swinging between brief happiness and misery all the time.

And for goodness sake, when will people realsie that mass unemployment is exactly what the industrial revolution was all about. The elephant in the room is the old expression "idle hands do the devils work". If technology had been allowed to deliver on it's promise of an easier life for all, and an entire industry of "depth manipulators" hadn't sprung up to keep you from being content with what you have (and endlessly striving for MORE higher "standard of living" (rather than quality of life) then ones "Work" would be more centred on making the best of what we have, "painting and maintaining" rather than endless replacement with new (but made of plastic) replicas of the items that we use.    

Life is a Lottery. A handful succeed, while the majority have to settle for three numbers plus the bonus ball. 

Life is a Lottery. A handful succeed, while the majority have to settle for three numbers plus the bonus ball.