Who has been the most important person in your life?

Me, unfortunately. Not in a narcissistic way, it's just that I'm the only one I've ever been able to rely on.

I have never had a proper friend or connected with anyone beyond a superficial level. I fundamentally don't understand human interaction. If I don't sort something out for myself then nobody else will, that's been the lesson I have learned the hard way again and again.

It is a lonely existence but on the other hand it's better than getting hurt by people.

Me, unfortunately. Not in a narcissistic way, it's just that I'm the only one I've ever been able to rely on.

I have never had a proper friend or connected with anyone beyond a superficial level. I fundamentally don't understand human interaction. If I don't sort something out for myself then nobody else will, that's been the lesson I have learned the hard way again and again.

It is a lonely existence but on the other hand it's better than getting hurt by people.

Untoward said:

Me, unfortunately. Not in a narcissistic way,

I'm in total agreement.     I've actually found most people severely lacking in basic humanity and character.     I take full responsibility for my life.

I get the part about self-reliance. There's never been anyone to help me the way I need help but me. Scares me sometimes.

I relate to this alot.

have you tried seeking out social skills training ?    there are some good courses that will help you improve

oh wow ----  yes my mun taught me to be always be ready to be alone and to continue on.  The oddest thing is i have become more social in the last few weeks i have no idea what changed me. 

Most people are alone they just dont realise it. 

I am sorry to hear people hurt you.

I wish they hadn't.