Stuck in a Washing Machine

So relate to that!

Yes! And I'm losing my grip.

Yes. I can. For me its more like holding on to the side of a mountain in a big winter storm. With people shouting at me "keep climbing" when it is taking all my strength to just hold on!

That is me exactly! Ryder Carroll has a book on bullet journalling, there is also a recommendation for the type of journal. I bought both. I also got a little ruler that fits in the sleeve at the back of the journal.

Other than that, there is a tonne of you tube videos and I'd highly suggest watching them as they all show how different people have made the journal work for them. Of all the things that I've taken up - and spent a tonne of money on, this has been the cheapest!

Are you me? Lol

Probably, although I would have to buy the official journal as that is the way I do things, spend loads of money and get right into it until the next big thing comes around

Do you think you might try it?

I did look at Bullet journalling last year but haven't taken the plunge yet

Thank you Loz. 

I've tried normal journalling, and keeping diaries for years, always gave it up. Look for a guy called Ryder Carroll. He created the system. Ignore all the fancy artsy ones that waste your time.

It took me a few months to figure out what was important to me, but essentially, I've now got it set up so that once a month, I sit down and set up a couple of pages,

- first page is a month overview,

- then a month tracker page which has all the info I want to track per day,

 - I'm paying off debt so the next page is blank and I just write down any spending that isn't a direct debit.

Once those pages are done, I have a weekly overview page,

Finally I just keep a daily log of what goes on.

I write too much so my pages are full of words, but it's generally short and sweet bullet points that help you track your day. Once you get into it, it's not more than 10 or 15 minutes a day and I've found it's something I've managed to stick with. It's in a gridded notebook so you can effectively set it up however you want rather than the way it's often expected you should do it.

Thank you Loz, i tried journal writing before, but thatcwas more a diary format and it made things worse. I really like how you explained yours, that sounded so much better.

I have a GP appointment today and I'm hoping that will help also. Right now I have no idea what's going on, I can't seem to catch my breath.

I will take your advice on the bullet journal, it might help me keep things in perspective. Thank you.  Though I will probably spend a month just designing the pages lol.

Weirdly, I'm hoping to get back to that. I've had so many things and so many people poking my monster, especially within the last few years, I'm feeling very exhausted emotionally. I'm taking steps to improve the situation now that I know about the autism. That seemed to be the final piece of the jigsaw puzzle. It's just that when I was more tapped into my emotions, I was able to use them to propel me forward. Now I feel like a bystander.

I know it sounds like same old advice, but perhaps you should keep a journal. I like the bullet journal method. Apart from keeping track of what is going on each day, I also track various information such as if I'm feeling positive or negative, sleep patterns, diet, I keep track of if my anxiety depression or PTSD have a moment, that sort of thing. I also keep track of my hobbies and exercise, basically, if I exercise, I tick for that day, do some sewing, tick that day. This morning, we were waiting for a red light to change at some building works, we had oncoming traffic which stoked my PTSD. So I'll tick that. By keeping track of things, I'm able to see when things are happening. It stops becoming, 'I'm like this all the time' and turns into 'I had a moment where my PTSD was causing my discomfort, but I also had a good experience today when I did some exercise and read something interesting. 

For me it's a way to start figuring things out so I can focus on that which can get my head back to where I want to be.

Hopefully we will one day find it!

I clicked on this as the thread title really niggled my curiosity...

Yes. Although the metaphor I've got is breathing (bear with me). My perspective on life appears to move on a cycle of being open and expansive (full breath) to closed in and restricted (no breath/empty lungs) and this seems to be a regular thing - so regular it's almost like breathing.

if there's a happy medium somewhere I seem to overshoot it. 

Me too. I can relate to this so much.

I go from being so low i can barely move, to so happy im bouncing and jumping around, talking 150mph lol

Yes, I can relate to this. I also experience mood swings where I rapidly change from being very happy to very sad instantly.

Hi Pookywombat. That would really annoy me too.

I don’t know because I feel good when I’m on my own and take anxiety treatment when around others. I sometimes feel though that I should not have to feel anxiety when around other people. Somebody I like really annoyed me today by singing when I wanted to concentrate.