I'm just beginning the process of seeking a autism diagnosis. I have been reading everything I can get my hands on about autism, and the more I read the more I feel like this is the key. It just fits, I feel it in my gut.
I have a working document on my computer, where I've been writing down all of the reasons I believe I am autistic, with examples. I am planning to give this to my doctor when I am ready. It is currently 4 pages long, and I'm definitely not finished.
My problem is that the couple of people I've brought it up with "in real life" just kind of.. laugh it off.
I feel like I'm pretty darn good at masking, and I know I hide a lot of things, due to the extreme bullying I endured throughout grade school. I'm just feeling hurt by realizing that even those closest to me don't really see me or my struggles.
I don't even know where I'm going with this, or how to explain how I'm feeling. Tell me I'm not alone? Have any of you had close family or friends who deny your autism exists?
