I'm free! Now entering my long weekend. My boss told me to leave early so I snaffled half a day. Slept solid as soon as I logged off (literally I can feel my head clearing and the energy flowing back into my bones).
It's the cognitive load. Apparently I'm doing well in the role I'm in - but I'm finding it exhausting. And it's not the difficulty - it's the frustration. I had two straight asks today which I cleared with ease - because for me they are straightforward. The social stuff? The constant jumping from one meeting to another? You may as well hand me the Hammacher Schlemmer crossword.
I did wonder if I could manage the tiredness and I think I've concluded I can't. It's not just that I get tired, it's the deterioration in mental state and difficulty in judgement. Yesterday I could barely function. My body spoke - and I'm going to listen.
There may be another opportunity to do the role in August but I'm either going to have to decline it or work are going to have to build in some adjustments and stick to them.
For now, I don't have to think about it. Just glad to spend the time relaxing and catching up on some reading.
