Doubting Myself/Identity Crisis

Hello,

my question is... do other people’s comments saying you’re not autistic affect your confidence ? Do you ever feel not autistic enough?

I am a 24 year old Female living in Kent. I Was diagnosed 2 years ago with level 1 autism spectrum disorder (I was in a fortunate enough position to be able to pay and go private) and for me it was a sigh of relief to have finally found what was ‘wrong’ with me. My partner and my parents also felt that it just made sense.

I had a therapist recently who really picked on me for my diagnosis and he made me feel bad for paying to go private and basically felt that I was a liar and asked to see my diagnosis report... this still really bothers me and it’s completely knocked my confidence when it comes to talking about my personal autistic experience. 

Ive masked pretty much my whole life (sometimes I even wonder who I am lol) and I don’t ‘look’ autistic whatever the hell that means, I have a good job, boyfriend and a friend...

has anyone else experienced something similar ? 

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  • That's shocking, doesn't sound like a goid therapist and at this point has undermined the relationship and trust is fundamental to the therapy relationship. Sadly it's all too common a response. A colleague was talking to me about his suspected autism, i suggested he told his therapist, but he said his experience if telling a previous therapist made it too scary, she'd done exactly as yours did!

    And yes, i regularly think i'm not autistic enough, though life to 21 was really tough, and what goeson in my head is well not normal!

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  • That's shocking, doesn't sound like a goid therapist and at this point has undermined the relationship and trust is fundamental to the therapy relationship. Sadly it's all too common a response. A colleague was talking to me about his suspected autism, i suggested he told his therapist, but he said his experience if telling a previous therapist made it too scary, she'd done exactly as yours did!

    And yes, i regularly think i'm not autistic enough, though life to 21 was really tough, and what goeson in my head is well not normal!

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