Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi,
I have autism.
I do not have that diagnosis, or any therapist or anyone telling me that.
I have been hiding in denial for 20 years, even through therapy and psychiatry.
My professional career - now burned - had scientific rigour, heuristics, formal logic and systems analysis at it's core.
My self doubt drives fascinations with cognitive biases, metaphor and irony. My love of words is exquisite.
I cannot - try as I might, with absolute fervour - dispute the hypothesis that I have autism.
I am delighted, terrified, filled with self doubt, totally free and holding my breath all at the same time.
I can chill out. I have the strategies. I keep [expletive] forgetting them or ignoring them.
I have the strongest, weakest mind ever. Which is to say, I'm normal, I have autism.
I am desperate for someone to look me in the face and tell me it's true and it's ok.
Thanks for /rant.
what are your IT skills ?
I was a (senior etc) database administrator - ms sql server, very large implementations super high availability etc etc - all the cool the stuff, as far as i'm conerned! previous to that I did a lot of business system integration workhowever - it may have been a mistake to go into IT, or at least, I wasn't careful enough to keep it as a passion and a 'cold, rigorous profession' simultaneously. not sure if that makes sense...