Hello. I will have to undergo a diagnosis soon, my psychiatrist says that when I make a diagnosis, I will be able to get the necessary support. I have no doubt about the diagnosis, since it was made in childhood, but then I was forced to leave my country and leave all the medical documents there, I can not return for them. When diagnosing in adulthood, you need those who saw me as a child, but this is not possible, since the connection with relatives is lost.
Will the lack of medical documents from my childhood and the absence of those who knew me in the past be an obstacle to a diagnosis?
I only have a history of observation in a psychiatric clinic for the last 5 years and a spouse with whom we have been together for 8 years and who has seen both my meltdowns and overload and communication problems.
The diagnosis is necessary, because I have a prolonged burnout caused by a completely destroyed life and associated difficulties, and when I do not cope, I break down and start beating myself and beating my head or stop talking or start screaming, as if I were a child again. Sometimes I want to die and then I get to the hospital where I get wrong diagnoses, for example, emotionally unstable personality disorder or hysterical disorder. Once, when I did not talk for half a year, they wrote to me that I had a regression in development and spoke to me as a person who was not in reality or simply ignored me, although I understood everything. I was also tied up in a closed room, although I just needed silence, darkness, and a heavy blanket. They prescribed unnecessary medications that ruined my health and I became very fat. The new doctor was able to connect 2+2 and now I can pass the diagnosis. In any case, I think that this will help me. I'm also afraid that past incorrect entries will interfere with the diagnosis.
I used to cope with life better, I had plans, I could work, I studied at the university, I sang in the choir, I painted, I wrote poetry, but then everything collapsed due to external events and I broke down. 7 years of lost life without the ability to restore it.
