i see the dog, she's watching the dog, the dog takes a dump in a park. she doesn't bother cleaning it up. she continues on her way. actually, after this happened i notice a doggie bag station between the lady and her dog....
so - that kind of ruins my walk. i'm angry i couldn't mention to her, say, "excuse me nice lady... i think your dog (fill in your favorite bathroom term, past tense, i guess)." so i'm angry at me and my short comings, but i guess i gotta live with them. i don't need to get into a big altercation, and, as an aspie, this aspie gets all angry and flustered, when NT's would maintain their cool, which is a huge negative (for me). so, i just swallow my feelings. i walk back the way i came. i don't feel like being around there.
and then i'm angry that there are people like this, that while i'm enjoying the sunset and the walk, in my favorite spot to walk, and they mess it up (literally). my therapist has commented that aspies can be really SENSITIVE --- i guess sensitive to things NT's, with their thick skins, have no problem with. i guess i'm talking being really sensitive to things, such as simple bad behavior... and that kind of ruining your day. i guess this can happen a little to NT's, but i'm guessing aspies can be much more negatively affected.
i'm noticing these small things that seem to affect me much more than i thought.... and possibly stay with me for awhile. i think a lot of it has to do with me expecting everyone to follow the rules...and getting upset when they don't.
anyone else relate to this?
(sorry if this post is kind of repetitive, etc... hard for me to organize my thoughts on this.)
