Struggling with understanding own emotions.

Hello everyone I’ve always had some difficulties with understanding some of my emotions I know when it’s super obvious like if I’m laughing my head off about something but I keep thinking about my autism assessment I was asked several times what I was feeling or how I felt about something and I couldn’t really answer properly does anyone else suffer with this sort of thing is it to do with my autism?

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  • I wonder a lot whether this, and other issues, are to do with an autistic brain (the hardware), or the consequences of a mind (software) that developed within an autistic child.

    As a child I was just bewildered and either in a state of awe with the world, or just in my own world. I didn't engage with most people until approx 11, and then only around 15 started to have something looking more like normal engagement. This will have impacted my ability to relate, but also communicate, and so have my emotions processed by others for me as a baby and small child and so learn about them. So instead of a direct consequence of an autistic brain I wonder if it's an indirect one, that the hardware is there but didn't get programmed when young.

    I think about this with regards 'avoidant attachment.' Do I have an strong version of this due to childhood experience of struggling to make sense of the world as a baby and so not connecting or attaching? Or is my brain wired not to attach? I could do therapy for the first one, but not the second.

    I wonder about this to know what my way out of it all is.

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  • I wonder a lot whether this, and other issues, are to do with an autistic brain (the hardware), or the consequences of a mind (software) that developed within an autistic child.

    As a child I was just bewildered and either in a state of awe with the world, or just in my own world. I didn't engage with most people until approx 11, and then only around 15 started to have something looking more like normal engagement. This will have impacted my ability to relate, but also communicate, and so have my emotions processed by others for me as a baby and small child and so learn about them. So instead of a direct consequence of an autistic brain I wonder if it's an indirect one, that the hardware is there but didn't get programmed when young.

    I think about this with regards 'avoidant attachment.' Do I have an strong version of this due to childhood experience of struggling to make sense of the world as a baby and so not connecting or attaching? Or is my brain wired not to attach? I could do therapy for the first one, but not the second.

    I wonder about this to know what my way out of it all is.

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