My dad is awkward with me and is old. There's a reasonable chance he'll die before me unless I kill myself.
But after he's dead I've no idea what comes next. My mother is my best friend and is also quite old. She's said she doesn't want to leave the house to me. She doesn't think I'm reliable or able to look after myself as I've been in 4 psychiatric wards, never been able to work, have no friends, bad anxiety, and so on.
So if my mother dies before me too, I don't know what happens then. Presumably the house will be left to one of my sisters who is seen as responsible. I think that's likely to be my oldest sister who's disabled too but not that similar to me. She's never been sectioned, has never got in trouble with the law even in a minor way and has serious disabilities but is able to manage reasonably well.
I can't get on with her that well, though. So maybe my mum thinks this sister would be the landlady of the property, owning it, and I would rent it off her? I'm not sure. But however it would work, it all seems too complicated and with potential things I couldn't cope with. I've lived alone a couple of times and both times my neighbours frightened me, I couldn't cope.
This is such a bizarre life. Not many people in their mid-thirties feel so powerless that they're worrying about whether they'll still have their parents' home to live in.
