Hello I am a 31 year old Female,
I have a diagnosis of atypical autism
im writing today, because i just wondered if anyone else when they experience difficult discussions, too much information processing, High anxiety, basically sometimes when i find all these emotions things to deal with, i end up hitting my head, and can really feel my heart beat rising so much, it scares me, it feels like a volcano, and i find it so hard to tell who I’m with that i feel its about to happen, i just end up hitting my head.
im managing Bulimia/Ed thoughts which are so hard too, due to low self esteem (had low self esteem ever since i can remember) i was diagnosed with atypical autism at age 23 , i developed physically early at the age of 9 years old,. When my ED thoughts are being challenged that makes me immediately feel tense and wound up, its like I’m eating everyday, I’d rather not, but i am, so that’s me managing it and being strong to ignore the ED voice every meal time.
Emotions, all of it, just feels so exhausting
Every time i have a melt down like that Eg hit my head, shout, its scary For me but I’m sure for the people I’m with too and it makes me feel like a horrible person, i like people to like me, but It turns me into a horrible childlike person.:(
does anyone feel the same, and any advice, i take Citalopram 40mg not really sure if its helping me or not