High Anxiety/Overwhelming emotions/discussions/find it hard to take in information - Do others struggle with their emotions/dealing with difficult discussions that can cause overwhelming feelings?

Hello I am a 31 year old Female, 

I have a diagnosis of atypical autism

im writing today, because i just wondered if anyone else when they experience difficult discussions, too much information processing, High anxiety, basically sometimes when i find all these emotions things to deal with, i end up hitting my head, and can really feel my heart beat rising so much, it scares me, it feels like a volcano, and i find it so hard to tell who I’m with that i feel its about to happen, i just end up hitting my head.

im managing Bulimia/Ed thoughts which are so hard too, due to low self esteem (had low self esteem ever since i can remember) i was diagnosed with atypical autism at age 23 , i developed physically early at the age of 9 years old,. When my ED thoughts are being challenged that makes me immediately feel tense and wound up, its like I’m eating everyday, I’d rather not, but i am, so that’s me managing it and being strong to ignore the ED voice every meal time.  

Emotions, all of it, just feels so exhausting 

Every time i have a melt down like that Eg hit my head, shout, its scary For me but I’m sure for the people I’m with too and it makes me feel like a horrible person, i like people to like me, but It turns me into a horrible childlike person.:(

does anyone feel the same, and any advice, i take Citalopram 40mg not really sure if its helping me or not

  • I used to completely lose it in management meetings, usually about my behaviour.  My emotions would cloud my thinking , and create delusions, make me angry defensive, and completely unafraid to say anything no matter how offensive. I would have "Grasshopper Thinking" ,,,, My chest would be exploding. This is what is called the flight fight response. In my case, years ago I could end up in a panic attacks.

    SInce then I have learnt many techiques to reduce anxiety and not lose my head with emotions so much.

    first thing is to get into your head that you are a good person, and you aren't doing anything wrong

    second we all have the ability  ( with practice ) to see through our thoughts, and emotions are also just thoughts.

    You are doing well,,  you are improving , you are fighting off the ED thoughts ,,,, well done thats a victory.

    How do you feel about waht I have said ? be honest  I can take anything Slight smile

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