I am finding it hard to deal with my relatively unstructured life post school and uni. I have imposed my own structure on my life, but what I really need is an externally imposed time-table like the one I had at school, telling me what to do at certain times. I find it hard to create my own structure because it feels looser and more subject to variation than an imposed structure from above. Most of my anxiety has its root in lack of structure, making me feel insecure and causing my mind to wonder. While I can cope with small changes to routine, I can't cope with lack of structure and unpredictability. I have a part time job now, much to be thankful for, but it is very unstructured and depends on me taking the initiative far too much, causing stress and anxiety.
