Newbie, no diagnosis, thoroughly confused

Hi all,

I'm a 31 year old female. I do not have an ASD diagnosis. Over the past few months however I have read journals and seen Ted Talks etc which have really resonated with me. They've made me realise that there may be a reason why I've never 'fitted in' and why I'm 'over sensitive', 'emotional' and in some people's eyes 'odd'.

I've joined the community to try and find out a bit more and hopefully talk to other people who may understand me for once. I don't know whether I am on the spectrum but I relate so much to what I'm seeing about aspergers/high functioning autism.

I'm not quite sure yet whether to go down the route of a diagnosis or even HOW to do it. Hopefully that's something I can figure out as I find out more too.

I feel quite confused (discombobulated) and isolated with all this. My partner was open about it to start with but now thinks I'm being a bit of a hypochondriac which actually makes me feel more misunderstood and isolated. I don't want to diagnose myself and know I can't.

I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety (specifically social anxiety) in my early teens. I've had a ridiculous amount of therapy sessions, CBT, counselling, confidence workshops etc etc. I can say it's helped a little but I still really struggle with particular things. I don't really want to list it all right now, I feel like the list is endless.

Am I being daft? Am I being a hypochondriac? Am I trying to justify why I'm a 'fruit loop' when really that's just the way I am? This has just turned into a rant of sorts and I apologise for that. Congratulations if you actually managed to get to the end  Upside down

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  • I'm in the self-diagnosed bracket at the moment and have joined the forum to a) check to see if I really fit in with this self-diagnosis and b) to get support, community and new insight to help me make better sense of the world.

    I've been posting a lot here and I've found I really feel at home.

    What you write here sounds very similar to my kind of thoughts that have led me to my own tentative-ish self-diagnosis.

    I'd personally say it's worth sticking around a bit and seeing if some of the people here fit in with how you see some of life.

    Everyone here seems pretty accepting of those of us who feel we probably fit in here but don't necessarily have the diagnosis.

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  • I'm in the self-diagnosed bracket at the moment and have joined the forum to a) check to see if I really fit in with this self-diagnosis and b) to get support, community and new insight to help me make better sense of the world.

    I've been posting a lot here and I've found I really feel at home.

    What you write here sounds very similar to my kind of thoughts that have led me to my own tentative-ish self-diagnosis.

    I'd personally say it's worth sticking around a bit and seeing if some of the people here fit in with how you see some of life.

    Everyone here seems pretty accepting of those of us who feel we probably fit in here but don't necessarily have the diagnosis.

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