Newbie, no diagnosis, thoroughly confused

Hi all,

I'm a 31 year old female. I do not have an ASD diagnosis. Over the past few months however I have read journals and seen Ted Talks etc which have really resonated with me. They've made me realise that there may be a reason why I've never 'fitted in' and why I'm 'over sensitive', 'emotional' and in some people's eyes 'odd'.

I've joined the community to try and find out a bit more and hopefully talk to other people who may understand me for once. I don't know whether I am on the spectrum but I relate so much to what I'm seeing about aspergers/high functioning autism.

I'm not quite sure yet whether to go down the route of a diagnosis or even HOW to do it. Hopefully that's something I can figure out as I find out more too.

I feel quite confused (discombobulated) and isolated with all this. My partner was open about it to start with but now thinks I'm being a bit of a hypochondriac which actually makes me feel more misunderstood and isolated. I don't want to diagnose myself and know I can't.

I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety (specifically social anxiety) in my early teens. I've had a ridiculous amount of therapy sessions, CBT, counselling, confidence workshops etc etc. I can say it's helped a little but I still really struggle with particular things. I don't really want to list it all right now, I feel like the list is endless.

Am I being daft? Am I being a hypochondriac? Am I trying to justify why I'm a 'fruit loop' when really that's just the way I am? This has just turned into a rant of sorts and I apologise for that. Congratulations if you actually managed to get to the end  Upside down

Parents
  • No you should trust your instinct and consider a getting a diagnosis. if its affecting your everyday life and causing you issues with maintaining relationships and you find difficulties understanding and interpreting other among other issue you should go to you general practitioner and request a diagnosis. If its not autism it could be something else such as attention deficit hyperactive disorder or it could be combination of both or something completely different. 

    The average waiting time for autism assessment really depends on location but in the England the average waiting time for adult diagnosis is two to three years and attention deficit hyperactive disorder can be around six years.

    I have also been thrown through the misdiagnosis of depression, anxiety and even Oppositional defiant disorder as a child. I have been through countless counselling sessions, cognitive behavioral therapy and anxiety and depression medication that just haven't worked. I am currently awaiting diagnosis for attention deficit hyperactive disorder that is co morbid with my autism and until i have the diagnosis my general practitioner can not prescribe me melatonin and attention deficit hyperactive disorder stimulant medication.

    Having the autism diagnosis has explained a lot about my behavior and even awaiting the attention deficit hyperactive disorder has helped me understand and manage my weakness way better, having the diagnosis has helped me understand but my experience of other attitude towards me when I have disclosed my diagnosis hasn't been positive one bit.  

Reply
  • No you should trust your instinct and consider a getting a diagnosis. if its affecting your everyday life and causing you issues with maintaining relationships and you find difficulties understanding and interpreting other among other issue you should go to you general practitioner and request a diagnosis. If its not autism it could be something else such as attention deficit hyperactive disorder or it could be combination of both or something completely different. 

    The average waiting time for autism assessment really depends on location but in the England the average waiting time for adult diagnosis is two to three years and attention deficit hyperactive disorder can be around six years.

    I have also been thrown through the misdiagnosis of depression, anxiety and even Oppositional defiant disorder as a child. I have been through countless counselling sessions, cognitive behavioral therapy and anxiety and depression medication that just haven't worked. I am currently awaiting diagnosis for attention deficit hyperactive disorder that is co morbid with my autism and until i have the diagnosis my general practitioner can not prescribe me melatonin and attention deficit hyperactive disorder stimulant medication.

    Having the autism diagnosis has explained a lot about my behavior and even awaiting the attention deficit hyperactive disorder has helped me understand and manage my weakness way better, having the diagnosis has helped me understand but my experience of other attitude towards me when I have disclosed my diagnosis hasn't been positive one bit.  

Children
No Data