Not to go into details but today there have been some let's say, miscommunications between my partner and I. I have noticed this has happened quite a few times recently. We were in the car park at the time.
After it happened we had to go to customer services in a shop for something so were "back to normal" but then we got bsck in the car I just went really quiet. I felt sick. My head felt funny.
It was like when you get bad news and you can't concentrate and feel weird in the stomach. That's how I felt. This is completely disproportionate to what had happened. I haven't been able to get past this feeling all night.
We got home and my partner knew I wasn't right. He came in to give me a hug but I didn't want it but took it anyway. He thought it was one of my anxiety episodes. It wasn't. He wasn't aware of what had set it off.
I went to do a workout to make me feel better but it didn't and I ended up crying.
I was trying to work out my emotions after that. I think cos this thing had happened a few times recently I just felt like giving up when it happened and thought what's the point. I didn't want to talk about things because I couldn't concentrate for the feeling in my head as described above. Also, I wasn't sure how to explain myself and wouldn't do myself justice so I would end up appeasing in the situation (it's usually me which ends up apologising often because I don't fully understand the situation).
I have been quiet all night. I feel like its made me go mute. I think it's more the feeling in my head which has caused this rather than the actual situation itself. Like I have not wanted to talk or do anything and I have found it hard to concentrate on anything because of this feeling in my head. I feel like I have just shut down and its all going on internally. Yes the situation has cheesed me off but I'm not sulking. It's like I can't form words or thoughts properly.
Then I thought could this be a shut down. I don't know. I woukd be grateful for any insights.
