Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi, so my name is Matthew and I have Aspergers but also a few other things going on which I’d like to ask about as I’m not sure how serious they are. So first thing is my anxiety. After a phone call with my GP she’s put me on Sertraline but I’m too scared to take them because of the side effects. I absolutely hate feeling or being sick and as a result I won’t take them. If anything its made me even more anxious. But in two weeks time I have to call her back to let her know how I’m getting on. So that’s awkward.
My next problem, which is my biggest one is this. In my head I have what I think of as an invisible friend, but not a friend more just an acquaintance. In my head I hear her speak, sometimes to me and sometimes to herself. She warns me against certain things and sometimes tells me to do certain things. Her mood can change in seconds and living life has become difficult because of this. She can be aggressive to other people and lately she’s been telling me I’m a failure and should die which is depressing for me. At the moment phone calls with the doctor are the only way of getting professional help unless you’re really poorly. I’ve tried so many times to tell my gp about this but I don’t know what to say or how to explain it. Explaining it here is difficult enough without having to do it over the phone. I’m at a loss now.
Did you create this friend? (like in childhood or as an adult if you felt lonely?) and make up her responses to your conversation? or does it appear to be like if you were talking to someone externally in that you wouldn't know what they were going to say until they had said it?
Are there any others? Does 'your friend' only seem to voice her opinions on what you are doing? or does she appear to have her 'own life on the inside'
you mention you are male but 'she ' is female...have you ever had any conscious desire to be a different sex to what your body is? or do you feel you (and your friend) are definitely two very different people? (like you would be if she was a real life person)
No she just popped up out of nowhere one day. And her response are her own, I don't control her or make her do anything. It's basically like talking to someone who is right in front of me in the same room.
She voices opinions on what I'm doing but also on her own stuff as well. And no I've never had thoughts of changing my sex. I feel we are two very different people and that's why I'm worried about it.
I would print off your above initial message and send it exactly to your doctor. Obviously with your name. If I struggle to explain, I spend a few days writing a letter. I hand a sealed letter to reception and my doctor calls me when shes able. I find it helpful
Yep. I didn't think of that because I never do with ours because there's something wrong with the e-mail at our practice and you can't trust it, but you could do that.