Do you agree with these statements?

I am alone in the midst of these happy, reasonable voices. All these creatures spend their time explaining, realizing happily that they agree with each other. In Heaven's name, why is it so important to think the same things all together. 

I want to leave, to go somewhere where I should be really in my place, where I would fit in . . . but my place is nowhere; I am unwanted.

I suppose it is out of laziness that the world is the same day after day. Today it seemed to want to change. And then anything, anything could happen.

I am. I am, I exist, I think, therefore I am; I am because I think, why do I think? I don't want to think any more, I am because I think that I don't want to be, I think that I . . . because . . . ugh!

People who live in society have learnt how to see themselves, in mirrors, as they appear to their friends. I have no friends: is that why my flesh is so naked?

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  • Hi Roswell

    I read your posts and can feel your pain.    Unfortunately, being aspie, I'm really poor at offering the 'support' phase of trying to help - I short cut directly to the 'find a solution' phase - but I'm aware people need time to process the support phase.

    I may be premature in asking, but are you able to think clearly enough (with all the stress in your life) to be able to put a plan in place for getting what you want in life?          Clean sheet of paper stuff.     Forget the situation you're in and create a real, practical solution that gives you what you need rather than concentrating on where you are and all the problems around that.    Seeing an insurmountable problems is very disabling - it saps all your ability to move forward.

    Are you realistic about what you want from friends - and where to find more compatible friends?        For example - I'm a mega-nerd but I go along to Meetups just for a change of faces - I'm not really compatible with many of them but some are nice, gentle people who don't make demands and we can chat about easy things - just something different to break the intense train of thoughts.    They find me easy to talk to because I can't play games - what you see is what you get - but I'm aware that others want more - more than I can or want to give.

    What activities would you like to enjoy being with people?    I know a lot of aspies into fishing - semi-solitary, peaceful, quiet, in touch with nature etc.    I do model boats - I'm pretty sure they are all undiagnosed aspies - the conversation is negligible unless it's about boats.  Smiley     What's your thing?

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  • Hi Roswell

    I read your posts and can feel your pain.    Unfortunately, being aspie, I'm really poor at offering the 'support' phase of trying to help - I short cut directly to the 'find a solution' phase - but I'm aware people need time to process the support phase.

    I may be premature in asking, but are you able to think clearly enough (with all the stress in your life) to be able to put a plan in place for getting what you want in life?          Clean sheet of paper stuff.     Forget the situation you're in and create a real, practical solution that gives you what you need rather than concentrating on where you are and all the problems around that.    Seeing an insurmountable problems is very disabling - it saps all your ability to move forward.

    Are you realistic about what you want from friends - and where to find more compatible friends?        For example - I'm a mega-nerd but I go along to Meetups just for a change of faces - I'm not really compatible with many of them but some are nice, gentle people who don't make demands and we can chat about easy things - just something different to break the intense train of thoughts.    They find me easy to talk to because I can't play games - what you see is what you get - but I'm aware that others want more - more than I can or want to give.

    What activities would you like to enjoy being with people?    I know a lot of aspies into fishing - semi-solitary, peaceful, quiet, in touch with nature etc.    I do model boats - I'm pretty sure they are all undiagnosed aspies - the conversation is negligible unless it's about boats.  Smiley     What's your thing?

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