Hi everyone,
I'm looking to find out whether other ASD people have suffered/suffer with similar relationship problems that I have and if there are any tips that people would like to pass on?
I found the most perfect woman who really supports, cares and loves me, and we are both doing our PhDs on similar subjects. We were together for nearly 2 years but recently I've found I can't cope with my worrying and I had to leave.
Worrying including:
-What If I'm not bisexual/gay (All my previous relationships have been with men)
-Sometimes my libido is zero... does this mean I'm not attracted to her, then this leads back to the first bullet point
-I have images in my head where I am single, wearing nice clothes, going on dates with men... I've had these images in my head for a long time, and I feel as though i have to pick between the life these images connote and the life with my girlfriend. This is very difficult to overcome.
My past three relationships have ended at exactly 18 months with the same worries shown in these bullet points, and I can't cope. Currently, I feel as though I could live in my childhood bedroom with my cat and be happy.... but I'm 100% sure this is not the case!
I'm wondering whether these recurring problems are something that will always be there and I have to learn how to overcome them or whether it just means my bestfriend/girlfriend was not the one and this is normal.
Thank you so much for reading this!
