Published on 12, July, 2020
Not much is available where I live that suits me. I keep checking to see if a small or at least cheap-ish bungalow or house come up because I don't know if I can face living in a flat anymore. The noise from neighbours above or below me feels just that little bit too much to take. It drives me up the walls.
There's still noise with many houses and bungalows but because it's to the sides I feel that's easier. In both the flats I've lived in I've had situations where when I've moved about the neighbour makes more noise moving around and opening and closing things, or doing stuff that makes noise, as well. In the previous flat I owned and the current one I felt and do feel claustrophobic, that my every move is being reacted to or noticed.
It's wanting to get away from that that is on my mind so much. Maybe I should try to move into a house or bungalow that seems out of my budget. Eek I hate not being very wealthy. I worry about things so much. Maybe I don't need as much money as I think, perhaps it would be worth having less money if I lived somewhere where I felt at peace. I might get more done, more reading, studying, pursuing my hobbies, feel less stressed, more able to relax and enjoy things.
Decisions, decisions!
I wish that I could live in a woods somewhere. I wouldnt care for electricity. I'd have a fire, grow my own food. But I would like water to drink
Me too !
I feel so isolated like no one understands, sometimes its just a lonely existence, I feel excluded but then also I cannot bear crowds and noise, I suffer from Hyperacusis, it really has a negative affect on so many things, including where I live, noise from outside, traffic, dogs barking, children playing, it never stops apart from late at night, hence I am awake....... I hope you are OK ? Sarah......I even have to wear ear plugs indoors at some stages, but I cant block out everything, its so hard :(