Does anyone want to come camping with me?

What Anthony says. And you could still get a tent. They are not mutually exclusive

You will - from what I know of you, you are a decent person so I think you’ve just had a bit of bad luck, that’s all. Definitely ring up the estate agent and get a viewing, also if your on benefits be sure to check that landlord takes tenants on DDS.

I've seen one flat on RightMove in my town that looks suitable. It looks definitely better than where I am, it's in an old converted Victorian building with a large garden and is in a more upmarket area. So I'm considering ringing up and asking for a viewing.

I'm still a bit confused though. I don't know if I'll ever fit in with ordinary neighbours which is why I was pondering on the tent idea.

Have you not had any luck with your proposed move to a new flat?

on a practical note, I reckon that small tents and other "festival-gear" could be available for bargain prices in the shops because the festivals will be cancelled and they have already planned to have a lot of stock that they can't sell. It will be partly offset by people taking holidays closer to home and avoiding hotels, but that typically uses a larger type of tent.   It could be a good time to buy a small one.  I already started to see thermos flasks, wellingtons and rain ponchos on sale.

LOL!

1. I'd love to live in woods, grow my own food and never go out. It's quite peculiar that we cabt just do that

Maybe we are actually hobbits.

That would be great. This is possibly a lame suggestion but I wonder if you could build a polytunnel in your garden to grow food. As it would be under cover you could hide from neighbours and get more peace. And it would grow food better because it would be warmer and better able to shelter from harsh winters or too heavy rainfall. 

1. I'd love to live in woods, grow my own food and never go out. It's quite peculiar that we cabt just do that

sounds like you have some ideas about how to help yourself and what you like so yes when you can go camping for a day or two somewhere safe

No-one is getting anything more than you out of life - it all feels the same for all of us whatever you do and you can be depressed and happy no matter what you have or don't. part of the human condition

I'd love to go proper camping with all the gear for an occassional break. It would have to be alone or I know you well

that's terrible ! the guitar is hardly noisy like a trumpet.  I play the guitar too.  

I need to go home from work now, have a nice evening

I'm sorry you feel sad. 

I don't understand why your partner is so strict about the conditions if you wanted to do something like that.

In one of these documentaries I watched someone said too much time is wasted on pettiness or doing things we don't like to please other people, or to maintain a lifestyle, and maybe there's an easier way.

That's part of the idea with the camping I think. A person lowers their costs so doesn't have the bills of the hotel and also if they're using someone's ktichen or bathroom they may have some genuine connection there unlike a service relationship in a hotel or restaurant which is more based on making money, and involves the person staying there feeling obligated to spend money to please others.

Thanks for the encouragement and the suggestion for the business idea. That sounds clever! 

I feel sad today as well as my neighbour is still being a pain in being blatantly noisy in how he bangs doors. As I think Plastic said in another thread I think humans are somewhat territorial and we all need so many square feet around us separating us from others. It would be ideal if nobody had to live in a flat.

I was learning the guitar and have stopped as he really bangs doors when I do that. So again the temptation to get away in a tent is strong. Not really sure where I'll go with this idea, I just wanted to post here to bounce ideas and experiences with people.

Yes, I have, but my partner would only accept it for up to a week and providing I went with one of my siblings.  Since they all have jobs and children and live a long way away, that isn't going to happen any time soon.   The feeling I have is that life is not real and the only real thing is existing and walking in the open air.  It's a bit like the part in Forrest Gump when he starts running and doesn't stop until he has run all over the world. 

I don't watch TV but another version of this fantasy in my own head involves doing it by bike with a little trailer containing all the things I need.   

I am one of those people that can just set my pace and keep going for a long time, so it's semi realistic.  

I'm also really sad today, but I am in my own little bubble and I'm not sure whether it's just me that feels down internally or I've actually affected other people in some way.  The likely thing is, they have not noticed me at all and just getting on with their life, I was just a passing mosquito.   

I like the idea of the back garden camping network. That's really good.  You could set up a business called BackyardB&B.   

It's good to have your response Plectrum thank you.

I feel whether it's real or not that I always seem to be disappointing people or not living up to expectations. I don't want to hurt myself or other people, it's that yearning to get away as you put it.

Have you ever asked your partner about doing it?

I've been watching quite a few documentary films on Prime where people go in a car, van or on bikes on journeys and sleep outside hotels and the usual tourist experience, whether it's in their car or a tent or in people's homes.

I often have thoughts like this. In my mind it doesn't have a start or an end but it's a picture of myself hiking, just walking all day, completely free of encumbrances and most material things, in the countryside or around an island. A deep desire to get away. Just meet people in the countryside and nod and say hello then pass on.  I guess i just find life too much sometimes.  My fantasy involves stopping at friendly little B&Bs etc, also never getting blisters, which is a bit unrealistic. 

I don't think my partner would accept it, but nevertheless the desire to do it is sometimes very strong.  It's a bit less at the moment because it's 12 degrees and raining outside. 

I don't need many material things from day to day, at least they don't make me very happy.