I've got nobody

Fair enough. Bless you. I have nobody. My phone is broke. I can't speak to anyone for help. I have nothing. I can't cope. I just can't cope.

I try to show empathy and be supportive. Due to a condition I have very little empathy and am always feeling suicidal. I try though. Sorry if it wasn't enough for you. You're worth more than drinking yourself to death by the way. And I don't think you or anybody else is better than me. Never have and I never will. We're all the same here and I like to think that brings us closer together. You guys on here are the closest I have to friendship and I admire you all very much.

Whatever, I think you lack empathy... I'm going to drink rum until I die. People like you think you're better than me. So be on your way. Good bye.

I'm sorry you think that. I didn't mean to write it that way. I would try it first, if you don't try you won't know. On the other hand maybe do as Robert123 suggests and continue, maybe if you're lucky it will attract people to you. Was not the case for me unfortunately but that's life. 

Talking to oneself, both attracts and repels people,  the NTs think your weird and will try to avoid you.  On the other hand it may attract the unusual people who have similar problems to you. 

I was recently singing and talking to myself on a bus and a woman started a conversation with me, about the area and how it's changed in recent years etc.

And what if I can't do that? Seems to me you would rather placate the NTs than me?

Being vocal to scare off people is an unhealthy reaction likely to social anxiety. Next time you feel like talking aloud try and speak in your head, that way it will be better for you and people won't think you're crazy. I do a lot of speaking in my head, really helps.

• Maybe start with amateur dramatics? Or any job in a theatre even minor

Maybe, I might mention it to my social worker.

Today even walking past people on the street I started talking to myself out loud, to stop feeling so frightened of them making eye contact with me. 

I hope you make some friends here. I read below you like acting. Shakespeare is good. It's a shame you feel you can't get the confidence and social skills to act with NTs at the moment. Don't lose hope. You will in time, for now continue studying and learning, be the best actor you can be and then when the time comes you'll be great.

You are a good artist with writing and theatre. Any chance of employment in those fields in any role , even very minor 

Hello, sorry you know what it feels like too. Most my socialising is done on Twitter, well I get the odd tweet reply from people on there. I hope to make friends.

One of the great plays is Hamlet. The new king Claudius is sinister and murdered the previous king. The dead king's ghost tells his son Prince Hamlet to bring about justice. Meanwhile Claudius is plotting to have the prince killed as he fears being discovered or killed himself. Prince Hamlet puts on a play with actors to reveal how Claudius has been scheming and murdered his father, and although the play has different names, the people watching it realise who it's about, and in the end Claudius is deposed.

North West England, 33. I want to perform as an actor in plays but haven't got the confidence and social skills to do it with NTs. I've watched every Shakespeare play. Theatre is cathartic for me.

Always, but where are you? And what age?

Hi Roswell, welcome. I know what it feels like. This is a nice place though with lots of good people. You'll make friends here.