Published on 12, July, 2020
From reading a few posts on here it seems like this is pretty common but im struggling hard with feeling like a fraud while waiting for my assessment. Im doubting and second guessing whether i have asd or not and the not knowing is bothering me. Some times im absolutely convinced, other times im afraid its all in my head and im seeing things that arent there, this isnt helped by my anxiety issues
As the wait is so long i looked into going private and found a viable way to have an assessment within the next few weeks, but due to the feelings im having im hesitating to book the assessment as im afraid that i may not be asd and then i will have spent a large amount of money on the assessment for nothing. Particularly as i dont have an informant, so this could complicate the assessment. But the NHS list is extremely long and the wait may drive me crazy!
How do i get over these feelings? Im so confused what i should do
I have the same feelings from time to time (I'm waiting for my assessment), but someone on this forum told me that nobody suspects they're autistic without very good reason - I found that comforting. Whether your experiences are related to autism or not, they're all real and valid. The way I see it, if I don't get a diagnosis, I'll always be wondering and I might miss an opportunity to get to know myself better.
I hope you get your answers soon.
Thanks both for your replies. Well i have heard that the waiting list is 2 years on NHS in my area, sooo i plucked up the courage and have a private screening appointment this saturday!
Very nervous and still battling with the imposter syndrome but i guess i wont know until i try. I figured the screening apt will at least help me find out if i need a full assessment or not. Ill then decide about weather to go private for the assessment after ive had the results of the screening
That's good news! Hope the appointment goes well.
Exactly - you might as well put your mind at rest one way or the other. At least you'll know for sure if you're autistic or not. Personally, I'm really hoping they diagnose me, because it'd explain so much about my life.
Good luck with the screening appointment