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Feeling like the people I love would be better off without me :(

mouse2

I seem to attract one horrible person after another, by that I mean people who look to do you harm. I'm staying in more now and go to quiet things when I need social interaction but I still come across awful people. I honestly dont understand why this is. I'm exhausted once more from working out situations, peoples intentions, 'what if' thoughts. Tired of shut downs when I need urgently to take action (something awful happened recently and I shut down, I couldnt stop myself from it I felt useless and I let someone down in a huge way)

The thing is, I can stay in all week and go out just once and something can happen that regular people have no experience of. I want to stay home indefinatly but I know that I cant as I'm a parent. I just feel helpless and a rubbish parent as I cant decipher people in time or I shut down completely 

Im just so tired. Ive called the Samaratans twice these last few days, As usual you cant get into the GP's. This one incident has shaken me to the core, it was by someone you should be able to trust too. I feel so tired right now :(

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  • I'm sorry your going through such a rough time in your life. It can't be easy for you feeling that way. Suicidal thoughts isn't a problem I've ever had but I want you to know that in no way would the people you love be better off without you. For starters I can see lots of people here are your friends and care about you, I like to include myself as one of those people ^.^

    I also read how you feel about your mum as well. That must be hard for you. But don't think for one second she doesn't want you in her life. She loves you I'm sure, just she probably doesn't know how to show it.

    Keep loving and being happy. Your life is worth living and you are a great person. If you ever need a friend to talk to then you can always message me anytime.

  • in reply to Queen

    Thank you both for your replies. My life is one mess after another. Usually because I dont react in time to people and when I fo figure stuff out it's much too late. I wish I could stay in and never go out

  • in reply to mouse2

    It's okay you're definitely not alone there and believe me you will get better. Life is one big learning curve. Staying in will make it much worse for you so try to go out when you can even if you don't really want to. I used to be like you, in certain ways I'm a lot better now but still struggle in some areas. *Hugs* It will get better. Don't give up on yourself.

  • in reply to mouse2

    Your mum probably does know it's your business page, 

    For whatever reason she's keeping her distance?

    Anyway what happened has obviously effected you deeply and you relationship with your family. 

    I guess you just need someone to talk to you until you figured out how to find a better place of mind. 

    I don't mind being a soundboard. 

    And its okay to feel like shyt from time to time , but not to be treated like ***. 

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  • in reply to mouse2

    Your mum probably does know it's your business page, 

    For whatever reason she's keeping her distance?

    Anyway what happened has obviously effected you deeply and you relationship with your family. 

    I guess you just need someone to talk to you until you figured out how to find a better place of mind. 

    I don't mind being a soundboard. 

    And its okay to feel like shyt from time to time , but not to be treated like ***. 

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