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Feeling like the people I love would be better off without me :(

mouse2

I seem to attract one horrible person after another, by that I mean people who look to do you harm. I'm staying in more now and go to quiet things when I need social interaction but I still come across awful people. I honestly dont understand why this is. I'm exhausted once more from working out situations, peoples intentions, 'what if' thoughts. Tired of shut downs when I need urgently to take action (something awful happened recently and I shut down, I couldnt stop myself from it I felt useless and I let someone down in a huge way)

The thing is, I can stay in all week and go out just once and something can happen that regular people have no experience of. I want to stay home indefinatly but I know that I cant as I'm a parent. I just feel helpless and a rubbish parent as I cant decipher people in time or I shut down completely 

Im just so tired. Ive called the Samaratans twice these last few days, As usual you cant get into the GP's. This one incident has shaken me to the core, it was by someone you should be able to trust too. I feel so tired right now :(

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  • The way I describe it is you're trying to walk in a straight line which is doable and simple but any normal interactions that non autistic people would navigate with ease and not cause any ripples can be very challenging for an autistic person where you feel you are drawn into situations (interactions) by either trying to walking passed without interacting (perceived to be rude) or forcing yourself to interact knowing you're not very good at it and coming across as stupid. I like you find myself shutting down and withdrawing myself from situations and staying in a lot of the time. What compounds it is having a hidden disability it is hard to find like minded people to fully express your feelings so I hope this forum can give you a little boost until you see your GP!

  • in reply to NAS64952

    I'm not sure the GP can help, I did consider it

  • in reply to mouse2

    Copy out the post you wrote from this forum and take to the GP, if they can't help they will refer you to someone who can.

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