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Hello everyone, Im new to this and a little worried. I hate social media so this kind of thing fills me with dread. 

Im 34 year old Mum with 2 children my gorgeous little girl is 10 and we have had a bit of a ride with her. Finally she has an autism screen just before Christmas. I have always said she has a lot of my unique ways. Now here it goes, it's suddenly dawned on me that i think I may be autistic and I'm not sure what to do with this. It's like a lightbulb moment. I have bravely booked a doctors appointment for this morning and I'm sat waiting. I can't do or think of anything else until I have been. My head feels like it may exploded. Im so worried (90% of my life is pure worry) 

I take meds for anniexty they do nothing at all, I find i can get increasingly angry a lot at the moment. My husband is sure i have Bipolar I really don't think this is the case. 

Anyone else in the same boat as me. 

xx

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  • Hi, I'm with you, it's taken me longer to get there though, I have a 19 year old with ASD/ADHD and as he's grown up we always joked that he's just like me.  I'm 50 now and it's finally dawned on me that we could be the same person, it would explain a lot, tbh I think if I was diagnosed as ASD it would be a relief, it would explain so much, haven't got to the doctor booking stage yet, wasn't actually sure what route to take to get it checked.  I would go ahead with the counselling and they could look into it further, if they think there are traits they can always refer you on.  Fingers crossed you feel more in control soon.  Good luck to you.

  • Thank you for sharing podstick! My girl is def a mini me! I have been thinking since she was 2 she was autistic but been told no by many NHS padetricans because she can make eye contact! 
    I have read so much about how hard it is for adults to be diagnosed.
    I hate the thought of counselling I may go see the same doctor who referred my daughter! 
    Doctors is the right route to take but it may take many trips xxx 

    • Keep trying, my son always made eye contact too, that is not the only indicator, he also had a very wide vocabulary early on, in fact getting him to be quiet was more of a problem.  I have just looked up the AQ10and Aq50 tests recommended by I'm done with Christmas cards, which are the ASD screening and diagnosis indicator tests and scored 7 on one and 39 on the other, very interesting, they are worth looking at. Please excuse me if I ramble, I just tend to write whatever is in my head so it can come out a bit oddly at times, sorry
  • I hate eye contact it makes me feel uncomfortable but they I get distracted by looking at other things and I’m lost then and I haven’t heard I think that’s been said! 
    I will take a look at those screenings now x 

  • For me, eye contact meant staring; which made women and girls feel awkward around me. (the feeling of being unloveable)

    Again, no one knows kids like their own mum. It was my mum who got me diagnosed with Asperger's. (she read about it in a women's magazine in 1991 and saw everything about me there)

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