After a lifetime of masking, how do I unmask?

After a lifetime of copying people to fit in (without realising) how do I stop? How do I find the real me? I feel exhausted right now. I've been reading about ASD in women and wow do I mask alot depending on the situation. I feel I dont know who I am after nearly 40 years masking. I wish that I could be like my don, he is who he is and that's that. Anyone else experienced this with masking?

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  • Yes me,I'm 46 and male. I mask with my ramily most and when I'm out.

    When I'm at home,bellyI laugh at something and my family look at me odd. I do something or something that stresss them out,because I don't want upset poeple I mask again. 

    I can only unmask when I'm alone, I doorknob how to other wise 

    If I want talk about it my wife won't talk,her answer is she knows lots of autism people and I'm like that,so won't talk. I have to mask again.

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  • Yes me,I'm 46 and male. I mask with my ramily most and when I'm out.

    When I'm at home,bellyI laugh at something and my family look at me odd. I do something or something that stresss them out,because I don't want upset poeple I mask again. 

    I can only unmask when I'm alone, I doorknob how to other wise 

    If I want talk about it my wife won't talk,her answer is she knows lots of autism people and I'm like that,so won't talk. I have to mask again.

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