Published on 12, July, 2020
I no longer feel like an alien on the wrong planet ,over the past couple of years I have seen articles on TV and radio about autism and aspergers and thought, hang on there talking about ME and after some research so much of what I have read mirrors my experience ,I have done the on line test for aspergers and had a score of 35 . I don't feel the need to get diagnosed but am looking to better understand why I seem to be this alien that just doesn't understand what the heck is going on when the rest of the population knows intuitively what's happening without a word even spoken .Love being with people as long as I know them and there is no more than 1 or 2 of them , felt utterly alone most of my life never considered myself being autistic I thought I was normal and everyone else was odd and I wouldn't want to change , I am quite happy being me and don't want to be "normal" . How to make friends is a complete mystery to me ,how ever friendly engaging and nice I am they always gravitate to others ,but I am not so bothered as I get older I happily accept myself as I am and am excited and intrigued to think there really are others out there like me ,I am 57 and gone thought hell for a lot of my life with social situations and work but age has its compensations and accept the way I am even possibly embrace it , so I hope to learn more about the way others experience things on here and how they compare to my own experience .
Hello! I hope that you gain understanding about yourself as well as support from others on this forum
Hi Kitsune thanks for your kind reply ,I am in the early stages of discovery about aspergers and myself and having lived so long with apparent symptoms I have developed copping mechanisms that are so deep and subconscious that I forget why I doing them ,like I have leaned to not over react and show no emotion when in an over sensitive episode because others will not understand why ,at least until I can be alone that is .