Published on 12, July, 2020
I used to think there was always some way to overcome anything. I was wrong. The UK is an evil country and nobody cares. I've been bullied all my life for being disabled and despite years of requests to the NHS and social services still get no support. I have no friends and have never had a girlriend. I am about to kill myself. When I die. I have only one wish. I want the UK to be recognised as the most backwards country in Europe, the place where people are most cruel because all I've ever known is loneliness and pain.
The police have just been to my flat. As usual, they misunderstand, as people always do. People will never be on my side. It's too much to ask. Ah well, such is life!
What has triggered this current state of feeling suicidal?
I can't form connections with people offline. I tried talking to people yesterday and they ignore me or are dismissive. I asked some people if they wanted a walk on the beach. I'm tired of everything being so rigid, in a sense. I feel most people police social situations, they won't just let things be. They have to have this power and control, they can't just speak freely.
It’s good that you’re still chatting with people on here even though you’re not up to clubs and societies at the moment.
It was good watching the seals swimming, you can just about see one in this picture
Southport beach in NW England
I've nothing planned. I'm wary of joining societies or clubs at the moment. Not sure I can function that well anymore.
That must have been great seeing the seals swimming.
Which beach?
i am in Dorset
Unfortunately, some people are ignorant and dismissive. It’s good that you can form connections with people online though
It’s a shame that no one wanted to go for a walk in the breach! It sounds like quite a calming thing to do. We went to a beach at the weekend where there were seals swimming in the sea quite close to the shore.
It is frustrating that people can’t just speak freely. Do you have any groups or anything planned for this week?