Published on 12, July, 2020
I used to think there was always some way to overcome anything. I was wrong. The UK is an evil country and nobody cares. I've been bullied all my life for being disabled and despite years of requests to the NHS and social services still get no support. I have no friends and have never had a girlriend. I am about to kill myself. When I die. I have only one wish. I want the UK to be recognised as the most backwards country in Europe, the place where people are most cruel because all I've ever known is loneliness and pain.
I'm sorry to hear you experienced that.
I have a similar story to you, my disability was also taken advantage of by a girl and the police and CJS which put me through a 3 year court case and saw me as an easy target becuase of my autism. I tried to fight it and no one cared to help me so I ended up with a criminal record and now I will never work again as it was hard enough trying to be employed before that
Thanks for sharing your experience. To be fair I've read a fair few British expats online writing about how they've had quite a few problems in Italy.
We are not actually the most backward. i lived in italy and i was bullied non stop for being foreign. It's also a dump of a country with worse prospects than here which is why most italians will happily emigrate, an italy was a founding nation of the EU.
iv been suicidal on and off for years mainly from bullying and loneliness i feel the need to connect to another human being and iv never found it i do have faith which helps and supports me not that the people in the church do though as they can be just as ignorant as those outside were my condition is concerned
It’s good that you’re still chatting with people on here even though you’re not up to clubs and societies at the moment.
It was good watching the seals swimming, you can just about see one in this picture
If you beat those strong feelings you will have skills for the future. We are both fairly similar I think
They 'should' let you draw the money out. I hope you enjoy the crisps!
Southport beach in NW England
I've nothing planned. I'm wary of joining societies or clubs at the moment. Not sure I can function that well anymore.
That must have been great seeing the seals swimming.
Okay-ish. Going to go to the bank later with a bank statement to see if they'll let me draw money out while I'm waiting for my new debit card to arrive. I want to buy some ready salted crisps, a few packs. I like to put them in a bowl and add some cider vinegar, it makes them less dry and the flavour is wonderful.
Which beach?
i am in Dorset
Unfortunately, some people are ignorant and dismissive. It’s good that you can form connections with people online though
It’s a shame that no one wanted to go for a walk in the breach! It sounds like quite a calming thing to do. We went to a beach at the weekend where there were seals swimming in the sea quite close to the shore.
It is frustrating that people can’t just speak freely. Do you have any groups or anything planned for this week?
Apology accepted! I’m very glad that you’re still with us! How are you feeling now?
Well somehow I made it through the day and didn't end up dead or in a mental hospital. And still the sun rises.
I'm sorry, I wouldn't want to upset a friend.
The Samaritans can be helpful sometimes. Thank you.
I can't form connections with people offline. I tried talking to people yesterday and they ignore me or are dismissive. I asked some people if they wanted a walk on the beach. I'm tired of everything being so rigid, in a sense. I feel most people police social situations, they won't just let things be. They have to have this power and control, they can't just speak freely.
Yeah, still here. I appreciate what you wrote. At the moment I feel strong emotions.
The book idea - maybe. I don't know if I've got it in me to produce anything else. You could probably write it yourself. My health is unreliable, when I wrote the novel some years ago I was a lot less depressed than now.