can’t remember what i am doing

 haven’t been able to remember what i’m doing, and when i’m doing something i find that i have actually not completed anything after awhile and what i’ve been moving from thing to thing without noticing. i can’t plan ahead as i can’t keep track of things such as time enough to know how it could work. i also get scared that if i plan ahead, i will go blank and my body and mind will shut down like it has been... i feel like i lose all control of myself that i have in these moments, and honestly i do not have a clue what it is that i’ve been doing. writing this, is extremely difficult as i’m trying to keep my thoughts in one place and get it out. also it’s good to speak with people who might get it.

Parents
  • Sounds like a hefty dollop of ADHD or ADD has been plonked on top of the Autism you (I presume ) have been diagnosed with. You sound a lot like me and I too have been "differently blessed" with both conditions so I have a reasonable idea what you are going through. Sadly though, I am unable to offer any help whatsoever other than to urge you to speak to your doctor and ask for an assessment. If you did actually have an Autism assessment, was any mention made of this -either by you or by your assessor? They are usually pretty good at spotting such things as I have learned that the two conditions-to varying degrees- are often "co-morbid". 

    This is one seriously formidable life-screwing set of hidden monsters to deal with so do yourself a favour and start banging on doors-you do not want to wait until you reach (almost, in my case) pensionable age before you start seeking help from trained Professionals who really know their stuff.

    My very best wishes to you.

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  • Sounds like a hefty dollop of ADHD or ADD has been plonked on top of the Autism you (I presume ) have been diagnosed with. You sound a lot like me and I too have been "differently blessed" with both conditions so I have a reasonable idea what you are going through. Sadly though, I am unable to offer any help whatsoever other than to urge you to speak to your doctor and ask for an assessment. If you did actually have an Autism assessment, was any mention made of this -either by you or by your assessor? They are usually pretty good at spotting such things as I have learned that the two conditions-to varying degrees- are often "co-morbid". 

    This is one seriously formidable life-screwing set of hidden monsters to deal with so do yourself a favour and start banging on doors-you do not want to wait until you reach (almost, in my case) pensionable age before you start seeking help from trained Professionals who really know their stuff.

    My very best wishes to you.

Children
  • i was going to get a neurodiverse test but it was very expensive. i presumed it was best autism diagnosis came first and paid for it. i just think it’s a lot of messing around to go through more diagnoses. my moods fluctuate MASSIVELY, i can get hyperactive and not remember anything i’ve done etc. tbh with you i feel like i am just being a burden with the issues that i have the health service. because it is never ending. though it is very expensive and draining doing it alone.