Published on 12, July, 2020
I walked 10 miles today until my legs and feet felt they would give way, that's the only way I could stop myself from screaming in despair.
While out walking I gesticulated wildly with my arms and hands and a few people laughed at me.
No surprises there. There isn't much compassion or intelligence in this world.
I saw Mark Lawrenson the football pundit chatting to his family then getting in his car and driving off, while on my walk.
Tried to talk to a few people but predictably NTs being NTs, they didn't want to as I was a stranger and I didn't follow the oh-so-stupid rules of small talk that are unbearable to me.
Now maybe this time will pass, in this moment this all seems so important, it's hard to believe I will ever find what I'm looking for, when at this juncture I feel this low.
Sorry you're feeling like this. Are there any groups for autistic people nearby? Maybe spending time with similar people will be helpful?
I find that older people tend to be more open to having a chat but equally I've been on walks where I've said hello (just whilst passing) 20 times and not one replied. Don't give up though. I've also had some really nice chats at bus stops, in parks etc.
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Fatigue...
There was an Autism group, it closed...
Time...
Space...
Happiness...
Family breakdown...
Not completely broken, confusing...
Dilemmas...
Attention deficit...
Be a good boy, take your medication, lower your voice...
Just enough education to perform...
Education, education, education...
Romeo & Juliet GCSE English...
Lack of imagination...
I wish I had someone to watch Seinfeld with, why can't I be funny like George or Jerry...
I hate goodbyes, please don't be offended if I hang up the phone without a proper goodbye...
Communication deficits, Anton Chekhov...
Whatever happened to modernism... and Post-Modernism, why are there no Post-Modernist buildings around here...
... ... ... morse code ... ... ...
Mum, can I have a plate of chips please?...
Sorry...
As you were...
Anton Chekhov. whats he all about ?