Having terrible day where everything goes wrong
New to the forum, left my full time job in May, was put in to position I was certain I would not survive so had to go. With the industry the way it is I don't have any chance to get back in when I am feeling better.
Had enough of life, can't discuss it as everyone just passes you on the samaritans, really no point waisting time trying to discuss it with people
When I left work I have a sizable lump sum of cash, I am renting struggled to meet that in my job, so that's the pressing problem. I can't afford to buy anywhere south where I am happy to live, but can buy a few up north
spent tons of time searching for the right place, I found one on Monday that had only been on Market for a few days, arranged a viewing on wednesday they had lots of interest. coming round to Tuesday / Wednesday morning, my anxiety and stress just got too much. I don't feel I could cope with the 5 hour plus drive, for a 30 minute viewing. Not sure how I could expect myself to be in a position to reliabily consider making the offer So I didn't go, on the hope the property would still be available next week and I could plan the journey step by step to work with my stress and anxiety
House sold today and I'm gutted and feel awful about myself not being able to go up there on Wednesday Now back to square one, it's taken four months so far. I need to move quickly now, I can't keep going on like this.
I have a bit of an addiction with shopping which is worse now I have left work. Trying to get a grip with things, but it just keeps stumbling along. Get all the hassle of things arriving damaged, poor condition, or with some problems. Sorting out this hassle returning things and communicating takes most of my time
I need to get out of renting, not too far down the road, I will be homeless. Council support doesn't cover 1 bed or studio place being a single male
A lot of the time I feel invisible or not existant in public
I rarely go out and find it very difficult
I just want to get a comfortable place of my own and shut the whole rotten world out
I returned something on ebay, and asked them to re-issue the voucher. You have to go through different departments then it gets checked and investigated. To my horror I found out eBay issued a new promotion which lasts til tuesday. No doubt I will get an email, oh we've re-issued it, and it will be new promotion which is vastly different. That's £100 down the drain, when I have not got any income
Anything I try and do just gets trashed and thrown back at me in this sick world
I should have support from mental health nurse, it's impossible to speak to her she just comes back with the most obvious and simple things which you have already done, or will just simply fall down because situation is not as simple and she is mapping out. My weekly support worker is off sick, will be retiring in near future. I can't speak with my GP because you have go through duty doctor who has different opinion and you end up more anxious, stressed, depressed
What do you do when life just keeps kicking you down when you try and pick yourself up, I feel everything will fail, and it does
