Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello,
I need advice. Yesterday at 9:00am my poor little friend Pippin, a Yorkshire Terrier died. He was suffering from a stroke or a brain tumour; the vet wasn’t sure. He had been a massive support to me over 13 years in the worse of times. My only friend during the night when I was alone.
i can’t eat, I can’t sleep, I feel sick, it has given me a bad stomach. I’ve cried so much and so often that I’ve become dehydrated. He died at home, he didn’t go silently, but he was completely gone, mentally at this point but I was there for the whole thing. It was the worse experience of my life. Thank god my brother was there with me. He was due to go to the vets to be put to sleep but he couldn’t hold out.
he has a brother, Pickles, but he spends all he’s time following my grandmother around. Pippin stayed with me, always.
i can’t focus on anything, I never knew how much he meant to me. He was a rock, a constant in my life, he was always there waiting for me, tail wagging. I know it sounds insane but I would confide in him. I wake up shaking in a panic wandering where he is.
I’ll be getting another friend soon enough but things will never be the same.
Does anyone have any tips on how to accept it and move on? Or is it just time?
I miss him so much.
awwh he had a lovely little face! I lost a dog a few years back and I still miss her every day. I got her cremated so I got her ashes back in a urn that looked like her. I've made a shrine in my bedroom, with her urn on, photo's her favourite toys and talk to her. I talked to an animal communicator who told me she would leave me little signs that she was still watching over me and would reincarnate and come back to me one day in the form of another dog. Fortunately for me I also had a younger dog so my routine didn't change I still had to to go out to walk a dog. I found it hardest dealing with people asking where my other dog was so started taking him out really early like 5am (clocks had gone back so it was light) and avoiding people in case they asked.
Just over 3 years and I still sleep with her teddies on her bed and still buy her a present incase she reincarnates and comes back in time for her birthday or xmas, so if she's watching (as a spirit) she knows I haven't forgotten her and am still waiting for her to 'come home'. I think she might wait for my current dog to get very old though (or wait until he's passed) as she always preferred being an 'only dog' and having me all to herself.