Exposure Anxiety: How complex are your social masks?

How complex are your social masks?  is it just you with a bit more (pretended) confidence to cope with a day at college or work?  or do you have complete alters that deal with particular things and are completely different to the 'real you', even though they're using your body to go to your college/workplace in? (so work colleagues etc would see the personality the alter portrayed as 'your personality')

Can you be 'you' in front of anyone at all or is your exposure anxiety so severe you can only be yourself in the house alone when no-one else is there? (other than pets maybe).

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  • I have always acted slightly differently depending on who I'm with.  Like I get really uncomfortable in groups or when there's a lot of talking, and sometimes I'll try to laugh when other people do or make the right noises/gestures, when really I'm thinking I just want to get away from here.  Some of my close friends know I get really uncomfortable so in situations like that I relax a little because I know they'll talk for me, or invite me into a conversation.  I've always kept things very well hidden.  I internalise a lot, and then when I get home sometimes I just explode about my day.  Some days I get home, and if there is no one to explode to, or it's all just way too much I just completely pass out.  Since my diagnosis things are starting to externalise a bit more, like things I do in private like shake my hands a lot of tap my fingers or pace around excessively I now do in some situations.  

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  • I have always acted slightly differently depending on who I'm with.  Like I get really uncomfortable in groups or when there's a lot of talking, and sometimes I'll try to laugh when other people do or make the right noises/gestures, when really I'm thinking I just want to get away from here.  Some of my close friends know I get really uncomfortable so in situations like that I relax a little because I know they'll talk for me, or invite me into a conversation.  I've always kept things very well hidden.  I internalise a lot, and then when I get home sometimes I just explode about my day.  Some days I get home, and if there is no one to explode to, or it's all just way too much I just completely pass out.  Since my diagnosis things are starting to externalise a bit more, like things I do in private like shake my hands a lot of tap my fingers or pace around excessively I now do in some situations.  

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