More Autistic After Diagnosis...

Obviously I know I'm not; I'm the same person, but it seems more apparent. For example at work I've started using a stress ball; I'm more aware of taking in distracting noises and feeling unable to work when there's a lot of distraction.

I'd tailor my stims in public to, for example scribbling lines and lines of figure 8's or drawing squares, whereas now I'll openly rub my neck or forehead. I've also had two meltdowns at work, whereas previously I'd somehow manage to avoid this happening at work.

I don't know whether any of this is a self-fulfilling prophecy type thing, or whether it is just a greater self-awareness and me feeling more able to be myself, with the strength provided by the diagnosis.

Anyone else experienced this type of reaction?

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  • You have given us very interesting question, I have noticed that since my diagnosis I can clearly see what my autisic expressions are and have connected why I feel bad where as before I would just experience these thing and not know why I was feeling the way I was.

    I don't know if I attribute things that are not my autism though which makes me feel bad. 

    Some of these things I have attribute to my autism 

    1. I don't like loud noise
    2. Bright lights
    3. People talking at me for a long time and more so when I have got there piont! 
    4. People being to close to me
    5. Things being late which make me late
    6. People asking things from me without explaining how to do them
    7. I can't keep eye contact (although I try very hard to) 
    8. I don't like doors left open
    9. I can't turn my mind off the only time my mind isn't going one thousand miles an hour is when I'm asleep and even then I'm not sure as I wake exhausted, I think it's my main stim constant analysis.      But I don't think I have noticeable stims because I have trained not to reveal anything like that. What stims do you guys have? 
  • My stims include air drummer, air guitar when walking, finger tapping that I have now noticed

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