Published on 12, July, 2020
It is quite sad, you think to yourself why didn't people do more to help. From what you wrote that's what I felt, it reminded me of my own experiences.
I never finished school due to bullying. Most people would have been resilient enough to fight back, I wasn't. I still often feel there's something missing in my life, mainly close relationships outside family, it does make me sad sometimes to know others who I went to school with have had the things I wanted (romance, long term friends). I also mourn how other people are much more accepted in social situations than I am. In that sense I feel I understand what you mean when you mention feeling sad for the life you could have had.
I find it particularly sad your mum hit you, my dad hit me hard once when I stopped going to school and also was aggressive in a few other ways, I think that did a lot to harm my confidence and trust in others for a long time.
How are things going for you at the moment?
Thank you Roswell, I'm still struggling at the moment, still getting overwhelmed. However, now I know Im potentially autisctic, I've figured out why I get overwhelmed, what I need to do to recharge (not that i always get to but at least i know).Im sorry to hear you were bullied, the NT world makes no sense to me, how they treat each other! I think Im quite honest, I have a huge moral compass, i worry if i think ive done someone wrong. so i dont understand why people do what they do