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My mind is numb

Castle

I don't really know how to put into words right now how I am feeling? as the mind is quite numb and unable to process my thoughts at this moment in time. But I just recently had a diagnosis of Autism Spectrum Condition of the Aspergers type.

I have kind of known after reading up on Aspergers that I may have had it but went through the thought process of days where I would think yes I am 90/10 and others where i would think I am 60/40 or 50/50. I hated the not knowing so I decided with all my mental struggles to get an assesment.

Well now I have been diagnosed all the worrying am I? aren't I? has been settled. I don't think it will sink in until a later date as I need time to digest information. 

Next things I need to think about are do I disclose it or keep it to myself. At the moment I'm thinking I will keep it to myself and only have a quiet word if and when needed.

Finally I just need to thank everyone on this website that has ever taken the time to reply to any of my messages because all the help and advice I ever recieved has been a massive help.

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  • Your concerns resonate with me and I too find it overwhelming; So much brain noise. Now, I do not know you or your journey, but from what you write, I imagine you are a nice person who is well liked and makes considerable effort to be a good friend no matter how inwardly exhausting it can be.  Being in the dark about your diagnosis would also be brain-overload for me as well. I have just been referred by my GP for further assessment after years of just thinking there was just something plain wrong with me and months of procrastination due to not wanting to lose friends and feel like I’m vying for attention. That said, I still personally would disclose it during general chat (I already make conversations awkward!), because, and I also need to practise what I preach here, it shouldn’t be something to be ashamed of, it’s our brain hardware and most of society is geared towards a different type of brain hardware.  I’m not going to patronise or say things like “be positive” or “don’t worry” because if your brain is anything similar to mine, I know they will just go straight to the junk email folder (so to speak), just promise me you will be yourself and don’t apologise to anyone for it.

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  • Your concerns resonate with me and I too find it overwhelming; So much brain noise. Now, I do not know you or your journey, but from what you write, I imagine you are a nice person who is well liked and makes considerable effort to be a good friend no matter how inwardly exhausting it can be.  Being in the dark about your diagnosis would also be brain-overload for me as well. I have just been referred by my GP for further assessment after years of just thinking there was just something plain wrong with me and months of procrastination due to not wanting to lose friends and feel like I’m vying for attention. That said, I still personally would disclose it during general chat (I already make conversations awkward!), because, and I also need to practise what I preach here, it shouldn’t be something to be ashamed of, it’s our brain hardware and most of society is geared towards a different type of brain hardware.  I’m not going to patronise or say things like “be positive” or “don’t worry” because if your brain is anything similar to mine, I know they will just go straight to the junk email folder (so to speak), just promise me you will be yourself and don’t apologise to anyone for it.

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  • in reply to NAS62937

    I couldn't believe what I was reading in your reply because it is quite accurate with what you imagine. I do try my best to get along and fit in, and yes it is exhausting and can be frustrating for my wife at times living with me but we some how manage.

    I wish you all the best with getting your referral and assesment. The great thing about this website is there are a lot of users that talk about their difficulties and experiences and it helps put your mind at ease knowing you are not alone.