Lonlier around others

I went to the pub tonight for the first time in a year and I felt so boring, out of place and as if I've nothing to offer. I feel so different from everyone else

I know its the norm to go out on an evening and I'd love to be that person but it's just not me and I wish I hadn't tried as I feel rubbish about myself now Disappointed

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  • I enjoy our local pub but only for the live bands. I love to stand at the back and just listen. A few times people say what's up. Once I had an awful man tell my husband I was boring and he asked how he puts up with me and i dont have friends. I dont have many friends but i know people and about 10 minutes later the 15 or so people that were meeting for my friends birthday showed up and that man who was being hurtful....he stood alone all night. I hate bullys. (When he said those remarks I suprised myself and came up with I'm just choosy who I speak to and your not my choice). I do find alot of people try and bully, belittle or use me. I'm not sure if it's because I'm not good in expressions, seem naive or what but that one event in the pub I felt I handled it well. 

    I've also found the pub I go to has a man who is a gardener and doesnt mind me chatting on about plants (my passion)

    Dont force yourself to socialise it's not all its cracked up to be

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  • I enjoy our local pub but only for the live bands. I love to stand at the back and just listen. A few times people say what's up. Once I had an awful man tell my husband I was boring and he asked how he puts up with me and i dont have friends. I dont have many friends but i know people and about 10 minutes later the 15 or so people that were meeting for my friends birthday showed up and that man who was being hurtful....he stood alone all night. I hate bullys. (When he said those remarks I suprised myself and came up with I'm just choosy who I speak to and your not my choice). I do find alot of people try and bully, belittle or use me. I'm not sure if it's because I'm not good in expressions, seem naive or what but that one event in the pub I felt I handled it well. 

    I've also found the pub I go to has a man who is a gardener and doesnt mind me chatting on about plants (my passion)

    Dont force yourself to socialise it's not all its cracked up to be

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