I find myself aged 30, jobless, single and living with parents. This time last year I was renting, earning 33k a year and had a partner....but o was even more unhappy then I am now.
im a qualified social worker. I have a 6 year old son.
i was diagnosed after a private assessment with Aspergers.
I hate living with my parents in some ways. I miss my freedom and independence. However when I lived alone I was even more unhappy as I found maintaining a household almost impossible. I became obsessed with cleaning and overwhelmed with the fact cleaning was my responsibility, bills stressed me out, I found being the only one to entertain my son exhausting as he’s a lovely child but like all children needs almost constant entertainment and attention.
‘I want a job but when I’ve had a job I’ve never lasted long. The manager never seems to like me and while I can maintain normality in a job I find after a few days my mask starts to slip and I become exhausted, anxious and demotivated. When working 3 days a week I find I can just about cope but that’s not going to enable me to buy my own home.
‘I’m currently on universal credit and absolutely skint. I get no disability benefits and feel I mask so well I’d never get them.
‘I’ve got an interview for a full time job in a few weeks. It’s a subject I’m interested in so I figured it’s better than nothing as being unemployed makes me miserable. But in reality I think I will find full time work hard.
no one knows I have Aspergers. My parents would be unsupportive and I’ve no friends.
Im honestly sat here crying because I genuinely don’t know what to do.
I am limited as I can’t drive but I fail at that too.
‘Honestly, if you were me what would you do? Where do I start.
