Removing 'the mask'

As a female currently trying to cope with life I am wondering how others cope with their 'masking' of symptoms.

For me, I have found I immediately fake a smile and make an effort to have interesting conversation and must stay alert during conversation inorder to present as normal. I have found particular problems with work. I can easily get a job. I am good at interviews and can keep my performance going for upto a month on average but then I will slowly or suddenly start to decline. I miss deadlines, I feel exhausted, stressed, disorganised, unmotivated and my work performance just gets worse. I have never lasted more than 7 months in a job.

What does 'masking' look like to you? 

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  • Exactly as you have described. It used to come second nature to me but as I've got older I can't keep up the act, it's tiring. I get lost, uninterested, drift away or say odd things during conversations these days (especially those that drag on for no other reason than to avoid silence!). It's the other person's reaction that jolts me back into masking. I usually slip up and they'll suddenly stop and ask if I'm ok. Which usually offends me and puts me on the defense but I realise it's because my mask fell off!

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  • Exactly as you have described. It used to come second nature to me but as I've got older I can't keep up the act, it's tiring. I get lost, uninterested, drift away or say odd things during conversations these days (especially those that drag on for no other reason than to avoid silence!). It's the other person's reaction that jolts me back into masking. I usually slip up and they'll suddenly stop and ask if I'm ok. Which usually offends me and puts me on the defense but I realise it's because my mask fell off!

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