I'm still digging around trying to understand what sorts of things are counted as meeting threshold for RRBs / IS in an autism diagnosis. Please note that I don't intend to fake any at my upcoming ADOS! What I'm after is some examples that allow me to settle the question in my mind that wonders if my clinical interview missed RRBs / IS that I *do* have, but aren't the stereotypical "obvious" ones.
I don't want a positive diagnosis if I'm not genuinely ASD, but neither do I want a negative diagnosis if I *am*.
Apart from the minor success I've had in discovering the RBQ2a, I'm drawing a blank in my internet based research.
I don't know if this contribution fits here but here goes...
One of the traits for autism is struggling with changes in routine. So whenever I have read about it, I have always just assumed this means daily routine. I've actually never had my morning routine disrupted and thought this trait couldn't apply to me.
A while ago i saw on a ch4 documentary that for some people it's not specifically routine but change with expected events. (So I'm not sure if this is to do with rigid thinking or routines, maybe they overlap).
I've had incredible anxiety today. It's an ongoing thing I'm trying to manage. I've been off work with it and been on reduced hours. Today was my first full day back in.
1. I attended a training event this morning. My brain knew there was nothing to be concerned about. I wouldn't be put in the spot. It was very informal. But couldn't shake off that anxiety.
2. Training finished earlier than expected so I returned to my usual job earlier than expected. I managed well. My brain knew I'd coped well and nothing bad had happened. Still the anxiety grew.
3. I found some paperwork which hadn't been completed by my cover when I was off a few weeks ago which meant I now had to do it. I thought it wouldve been done tbh and was a bit cheesed off that I now had to put the time in to catch up. (Given id been off with anxiety some of it due to workload). My brain was saying "it's no problem these things happen" but the anxiety got worse.
On my drive home I really tried to get to the root of why this had all made me anxious. The humsn brain me knew the rational explanations but the animal me just felt anxious. I felt more at ease when I identified "I think it's because I'd experienced 3 unexpected events in quick succession".
Does this all relate to routine or am i barking up the wrong tree? It's quite clear these unexpected events have caused me problems. Is my response excessive or normal?
I wonder the same sort of things. On so many occasions I *cope*, but what mental energy does it burn? When I get back to my desk and the voicemail light is on on my desk phone. When an email arrives with a red "urgent" flag. When I'm asked if I want to go to the pub quiz. When I'm told someone will be at my site the following day and would I take them to lunch?
Like you I wonder if it's normal or excessive. But for someone who now realises that they hardly feel anything at all normally to experience the sudden awakening in the solar plexus and the chills in the legs - I think it's significant.
And I wonder how safe it is to apply techniques like CBT, or generally "get out of my comfort zone & develop my weaknesses" when I know that after a decade of doing that I burned out and suffered horrendously for 18 months.
For what it's worth my deep-diving into all things ASD since my diagnosis has made me leery of CBT as potentially harmful rather than helpful.
My psychologist has suggested ACT (Acceptance & Commitment Therapy) as what she uses with ASD patients.
A quick Google brings up some interesting comparisons and I think reinforces that ACT is probably 'better' for people with ASD
this one gives a nice analogy using quicksand
Thank you for posting this. Self love is definitely the way to go.
Yes, CBT is another "try harder" way of thinking. That can exacerbate poor mental health and poor self-image. Reinforcing that you suck at something because of the amount of effort that needs to be done to even do CBT if you have an issue.
the dichotomy of the above lead to many ND exercising their middle finger or masking everything that they are.
I think I might actually have had a personality disorder at one point. I was definitely a different person at an interview.
Society could use improvement.