Kind of freaking out silently on the inside, had all my assessments and will finally get the answer tomorrow, whether I do have autism or not according to these set of specialists.
I thought I had got to point I was okay with whatever the answer but now am not so sure.
Really scared what if this is this not the answer to I was searching for then I have wasted time and money (went private) chasing this diagnosis and back to step one as why I struggle with life so much.
If it is the answer is yes where do I go from here knowing the challenges I have had aren't just gonna go away. reading everyone elses journeys this is just the beginning.
Good luck with your final outcome. I too am in a similar position too yourself. I am in the middle of being assessed and will find out shortly what my outcome is. There is alot of anxiety whilst waiting because of the unknown results.
My biggest fear is although I hit many traits I can stare at someone as I talk and also had a few friends growing up in childhood. I also understand that it's a spectrum so I could be at one end of the scale where I dont need as much help as someone at the other end of the scale.
All I know is life has been a massive struggle and getting results from an ASC assessment will help me understand that yes I was right and I do have an ASC, or I think too deep and instead of looking for a reason to why I struggle in alot of situations that really I just may have to accept that it's my personality type and learn to live with myself understanding I am always going to be who I am and nothing is to blame for the way I am.
I sincerely wish you all the best because i know how you feel as i am in a similar position to yourself.
Yep it's the waiting around that courses anxiety,
Yeah same here throught work and academia I learnt how to deal with certain like stare into eyes, I guess thats the trouble with adult diagnosis we learn to cope,
Like I went out a couple of days ago but then spent the next two days in bed pretty much but while out I was fine.
I guess I just want the stamp but need to accept myself.
Hope we both find the answers we need