Published on 12, July, 2020
Since I can remember I have felt different. Everyone would be making so much noise and I would look around in silence reading everyone's face and voices. I had no idea what to say so I would often choose to say nothing or say 'yes' which felt easy enough.
As I have got older the symptoms have not gone away. I still find myself staring into space and not sure what to say.
I usually have an anxiety build up before going out and a cool down sensation when I close the door and I am home.
I prefer being alone because I really cant understand anyone. I always end up offending them and wondering what happened. They don't usually seem keen to meet up again.
I guess it would be nice to have someone to talk to that would not judge me. Someone that got my condition. I feel people just think I am weird. It makes me feel like staying alone than trying again.
Hi everyone, thanks for all the responses, it is a relief to know I am not going through this alone. I have found making mini note books at home and crafts a relaxing pass time. It seems to help take off the mind from thinking at times when anxiety is high. I hope everyone has a good day. Cant do groups myself and I am too anxious so miss a lot of things. I don’t like groups and noise, so I go out when it’s quite and then don’t really bump into many people. I also FREEZE in public. So I have a worried serious look on my face and I doubt I look very welcoming to anyone who might think of saying hello. Anyone got a pet? I find that helped having a pet to look after and something that didn’t expect me to talk.....