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Several times a week I walk along the seafront where I live and drink copious amounts of rum. I talk to imaginary friends and have a good old time. I'm slowly killing myself. I'm one of the last big drinkers. 

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  • Please talk to us. We understand and want to know.******* is a deceptive thing. I suppose for some arrogant ableist I am  a w*****, but I don't think this way of myself and on face value I am not. But some of those ******* could be smart educated people with a lot to give. Like you. there are a lot of talkative people in this forum. It there anything that bothers you particularly?

  • I feel extremely lonely. My soul isn't on the same wavelength as most people. I'm reading The Great Gatsby by Fitzgerald and that's something I can't talk to anyone about. 

    I hate cars and motorbikes, the noise everywhere I go, there's no peace anywhere. I tried reading my book on the beach and cars were constantly speeding past and also parking, and people getting out loudly and walking right near me, loudly, rudely. Of course I could just stay at home but then that's hardly a life is it?

    I hate the consumerism of the modern world and particularly how caught up in it British people are. Independent experts agree with me on that. There is research that indicates British people are even more judgmental than the Americans about what brands you wear and which car you have. 

    My dad said to me I would have fitted in better in the '60s. He's probably right on the whole. I've read Nausea by Sartre and The Outsider by Camus, books that were in vogue at the time. I prefer the spirit of the music of that time, even if it wasn't always that good musically. There's plenty of good music about now but the feeling in it is often more aggressive and harsh than what music used to be. Especially the grime some young people are listening to now. It's really bleak and violent.

    I have no real friends. Only people who've kept me around for their own convenience. I know a woman who is friends with me because she wanted to be my girlfriend years ago and probably still likes me, but she isn't interest at all in anything I am except disability awareness. I can't seem to find anyone to talk to who had a broad range of interests and is polite and easy to talk to.

  • I understand not being on the same wavelength as others. I read a lot of books which I couldn't discuss with other women I know. I use the internet as a resource for researching my interests and as a sounding board and for discussion of things it's difficult to discuss with the offline real life people I mix with daily. F Scott Fitzgerald has a big following and so it's possible to find discussion threads relating to his books online. I found a discussion thread about The Great Gatsby on a website called: Onlinebookclub.org

    Perhaps you could consider taking a course you're interested in at your local community college, to give you something to stimulate your mind and provide an opportunity to meet other people with the same interests.

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  • I understand not being on the same wavelength as others. I read a lot of books which I couldn't discuss with other women I know. I use the internet as a resource for researching my interests and as a sounding board and for discussion of things it's difficult to discuss with the offline real life people I mix with daily. F Scott Fitzgerald has a big following and so it's possible to find discussion threads relating to his books online. I found a discussion thread about The Great Gatsby on a website called: Onlinebookclub.org

    Perhaps you could consider taking a course you're interested in at your local community college, to give you something to stimulate your mind and provide an opportunity to meet other people with the same interests.

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  • I intend to take a course at the local college once my electronic tag is removed in 3 weeks. As long as the judge doesn't extend it at the hearing.

    Stimulating the mind is important, I agree, I might start using that bookclub website, once I've finished Great Gatsby I'll see what's on there about it.

    Which books do you like reading, if I may ask?

  • Hi, not been on here for a few days - I pop in now and again to see what conversations are going on.

    I'm in my 50s now & I've read so much over the decades. Growing up I loved fantasy - Alice through the looking glass, the Narnia series, etc. In my teens I got into Pan horror story collections for a while, but now the only books in the "horror"genre I read are Stephen King's, or an occasional vampire novel if I find one with a good enough writing style.

    There are so many books I have enjoyed as an adult, incorporating fantasy, sci-fi, humour, classic and contemporary fiction. Some of the books I have in my current Kindle library are: The Martian (Andy Weir) The Humans (Matt Haig) The mirror of her dreams (Stephen Donaldson) The stars tennis balls (Stephen Fry) Dead Girl Walking (Chris Brookmyre) Who sent Clement? (Keith A Pearson) Popcorn (Ben Elton) Middlemarch (George Eliot) and The Stone Man (Luke Smitherd)

    I also download free library books from the cloud library, and I've just finished one called "Munmun" by Jesse Andrews, a brilliant satire set in an alternate world where every person's physical size is directly proportional to their wealth, from the lttlepoor people (the size of rats) to billionaires the size of skyscrapers. Poor people who save enough "munmuns" can " size up" in a strange ceremony performed by bankers which makes them physically bigger. It's the story of a teenage boy & his sister (born littlepoor) and looks at class, wealth and power in the modern world.