I'm feeling really flat at the moment. I'm OK, I'm not in distress, I'm content, but very "meh".
I'm wondering if there is a way to boost our responses to emotions? Someone asked me recently if I've ever experienced joy, and I struggle to answer that.
When I think of excitement and enthusiasm, I pretty much always go to me aged 11 sitting in a French lesson one afternoon, suddenly realising that it was about an hour until "home time" and I had a *stereo* alarm clock radio, with headphones & FM receiver, at home to play with.
We were out and about recently and my wife suggested a quick detour on the way home as the Red Arrows were doing a display nearby and we could nip and see them. I replied that I wasn't that fussed as I'd seen them before.
My dad's about to have an assessment on his heart and possibly getting a pacemaker fitted. I don't feel any emotion about this, though I kind of think that I *should*.
I'm sure I remember experiencing emotions more strongly when I was younger; the smell of books, the pleasure of writing in ballpoint pen on the first page of a new exercise book, learning something new.
I don't know where this is going.
I don't feel depressed though - and I know depression!
