Feeling like I'm better off dead

A lot of the time I wish I could be reincarnated as someone without Asperger's. I hate how much it ruins and takes over my life. I hate that I can't make friends and go and hang out with others like other people because how people make friends is a mystery to me. I'm sure most people hate me and think I'm weird and don't want to be my friend anyways. I truly hate myself and think I'm better off dead. 

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  • I always find that in dealing with Mental Health professionals, they always raise questions about feeling suicidal in relation to anxiety and depression.

    In some ways, I might say that I feel suicidal, but when I really analyse it I don't actually feel suicidal. I just want to get away from everything, from modern life, from people, from the stress and pressure of things. In that regard, what I actually feel like doing is running away from my life, finding a nice secluded place somewhere away from everyone and everything and to just enjoy the peace and quiet of such a life.

    I think the feelings of wanting to escape can be conflated with the idea that this is the same thing as wanting to commit suicide. It's an easy and simple thing to do to link these things together because in a way it feels like it makes sense.

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  • I always find that in dealing with Mental Health professionals, they always raise questions about feeling suicidal in relation to anxiety and depression.

    In some ways, I might say that I feel suicidal, but when I really analyse it I don't actually feel suicidal. I just want to get away from everything, from modern life, from people, from the stress and pressure of things. In that regard, what I actually feel like doing is running away from my life, finding a nice secluded place somewhere away from everyone and everything and to just enjoy the peace and quiet of such a life.

    I think the feelings of wanting to escape can be conflated with the idea that this is the same thing as wanting to commit suicide. It's an easy and simple thing to do to link these things together because in a way it feels like it makes sense.

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