It's over a year now since I suffered a major burnout leading to long term sick, and since I've returned to work I've been taking care of myself by not travelling and really carefully managing my sensory environment & keeping away from hubbub (lots of conversations etc.). My self care has worked really well, and I've feel that I've discovered "normal, healthy" levels of stress for the first time in my working life (healthy levels of stress for *me*, at least).
Now that I'm looking like I've recovered from burnout and I'm starting performing at 95% again, I can feel myself coming under pressure to start attending meetings in person again and travelling again. Before my burnout I was flying into Europe alone maybe every month and just feeling important rather than stressed. Now I'm very wary about returning to what everyone else will see as normal.
I don't know what I'm asking others here for - maybe just sympathy & to tell me that yes, I need to look after myself and not put myself under pressure.
By the way, one of the things I'm *really* mindful of is giving an inch and being expected to do a mile.............
The problem with us is we feel compelled to do the right thing. NTs don't seem to have this so slacking off comes naturally.
We over-drive ourselves while achieving perfection.
Plastic said:We over-drive ourselves while achieving perfection.
This pretty much sums up every working day for me - I end up making myself bad through sheer grit of trying to get everything perfect and sacrificing everything at all costs (including my health and well-being). I still haven't figured out how not to do this.
Likewise. It took a full-on burnout to make me stop. On reflection I wonder if work became like an improved version of family for me; the work environment understood and properly valued my abilities, where my family had no clue and no way to appreciate it apart from repeating "You're *so* clever". I realise now that it was a mistake for me to respond to this by giving everything in return.